Memento Mori

Sever


Hatred, is what is sacred

calls out across the room where you sit and lie (again)

Devour, is what you power

beneath your subtle hand tricks and that venom tongue (of yours)


Spit your acid, out of your mouth

C'mon, yeah just shoot it, it out



I don't wanna go inside the fire

already been, so you won't take it

death of me is your darkest desire

now your soul's corroding bit by bit


Sever, now and forever

the parking lot has become another battleground (again)

Deceiver, you'll never free her

she's just another lost mind taken down to hell's prison


Spit your acid out of your mouth

C'mon yeah just shoot it, it out



Half-Full

Sometimes sleep on the floor is softer

than a bed which has all the facts

the vase is half-full of stone and water

discoloration decays among the cracks


Hope may be dormant in the storm

but blossoms quickly after rain

safe shelters are illusionary forms

created by he with death's cane.



Rip Into The Core


Look out past the scratches on the windowpane

It whispers cold relentions down my ear

Lips are sealed , body paralysis, soulless pain

I have no control this time, now Hell is here


The pounding of the hunger to feed the beast

overwhelms my child as he cripples under

Help seems gone, this destroyer will not cease

Doesnt anyone believe in torn asunder?


An unholy crime occured again tonight

Blood was spilled and cries lost

Another soul fighting for his life

Murdered by his mind


Open your eyes, but you're trapped in its dream

running through walls and into asylums

Release her from these devilish schemes

all she wants is out of the catacombs


Littering the air reeks all their breath

my mind wants back into my safe insanity

Fight for life or let you have your way death

No, you wont win this overall calamity


An unholy crime occured again tonight

blood was spilled and cries lost

Another soul fighting for her life

Murdered by her mind



Fight the Liar


Comatose kaleidoscopes

revolve around this land of smoke

never ever show you're terrified


Show me where loyalty lies

Beneath your tongue or in your eyes

Another voyage down memory lane


Theology (knowledge equals truth)

Reality (the world is black and white)


Focus now on devilish dreams

The particular poision of choice

Ravenous wolves and vultures


Silent rooms, scenic fires

fight the liar and bleed desires

of flesh and scars on our horizon


Truth (perceiver of perception)

Lies (smoke trails from hell)


We can't live in a place we don't belong

Can my one more day begin the end?

Scarlet Sins and Pure Snow

Untitled


It's already another night

walking the house alone

the darkness is dimming light

while voices they can't hear

speak to me.


A cold draft of air

seethes of a demon's touch

This visible invisible cares

too little for far too much


On my back, or around my legs

like a wolf and vampiric hybrid

sounds cliche', but not so common

when seeing spiritual eyes; you did


Not how this should be, forgive me Father

I'm not normal but you know this

that I'm not evil; all I want is innocence

when instinct slaughters my mind and body


Those in the light

know we die in the

dark; losing faith

but holding

on.



Corrupt Unity


How can we be as white as snow

when scarlet sins are all we know?

Sometimes we're dragged so far below

all we do is scream


Nothing is ever as it seems

especially in warfare such as this

It's not physical, of that I'm sure

the pulpit now is just a blur


Why do you preach of harmony

facades and corrupt unity

Why can't you see

that we want more

The truth, the Word

and nothing more


Wolves and demons all around

nothing new, they will surround

all our breaches and walls alike

till dawn awakes and death to night


Lost the fight, not the war

I will no longer be your whore

Your scarlet harlots will decay

when Christ returns this very day.



The Ray and the Light


Severing the memories of the past

becomes harder and harder with each relapse

Dreams do not comfort a soul at night

When all I want is to know I'm alright


Surrender the pain (Let the healing come)

To die is to gain ( Let thy will be done)


All I want

is to live and die for You

and not to live

for the next thing that's new


Is the mirror in my mind a reflection of Your love?

Look in, turn away, then pass by

Why not look deeper, pause and gaze in awe

at the one who's sacrifice I never saw


I'm looking at the ray, but into the light

The world surrounds my vision, now where is my sight?



Stories


My story is so much more than pain

yeah, its so much more than hurt and lies

Got tired of wastin time and feelin same

feelings that led to tears and cries


He wrote my name with His sacrifice

ink was precious blood; nails were pens

I'm not a footnote at the bottom

I'm a chapter in the Book of Life


Show me life beyond reality

I'm a change in the making

every day is new; same struggles

but at least I'm saying (with faith)

life is more than vanity


My words are complex, all is true

Not all bruises were black and blue

Yet through the cross; this mourning

for me brings new mercies in the morning


Bring me into Your halls of glass

smoke and angels speak Your glory

How can this world which will pass

compare to the greatest treasure?



Ephesians 1:3


You whispered Your plan in my heart

so much better than this present dream

A thousand broken shards direct darts

that penetrate my lightning beam


Faith triumphed over doubt and lies

Praise to Jesus! Hands ascended high


So many, so many, do we plan

Futile, oh so futile are us (man)

So powerful enough to hold on

Not strong enough to let go


To stay away from You (wage of death)

Now I dont want to ever leave

I can't scream praises loud enough

if only my arms were ladders to heaven


Here begins Your new sentence in the Book of Life

written with Your nails and precious blood

So show me Your scars again

So I may desire to hold You closer



Chasm


I was dancing amid shadows of light

Seeing only what I felt

Tasting only what I heard

Speaking fooliishly with all my might


Never did I know how close

I was to this farthest chasm

4 steps up the mountain
3 ignorant praises
2 for curiosity
One fall


Artificial light blinds more than darkness

Please raise me up again like You did

My many words; stones to a bird

Take my hand and curse the idle word


Now that I'm in this fall again

I can't wait till I hit the bottom

Let me never sin against You

give me discernment, Father


Cursed may I be

if you ever see

my angelic syntax

with demonic motives

The Autumn Effect

New Moon


I see the crimson soaked sea

silently screaming as stars slowly burn

Twilight is bruised as night begins to dawn

On this beach alone I whisper, "I believe"


The haze on the horizon causes doubt

as shadows and darkness rise to reign



Then I see Your face blazing in the harvest moon

shades of fire like burning coals in Your eyes

My last breath, I once thought so soon

Now fades away as my tears begin to cry



Waves of orange and black shatter silence

singing lullabies of praise to the air

As she rises higher amidst clouds with care

the whole earth seems to stand still


The haze is now a curtain torn in two

Jesus blesses me with this view





The Last Leaf



My words of help and sacrifice

are farther away than this ocean between us

Rise and fall with virtue and vice

Seasons to cycles as we decompose


The breath of your lying lips

more bitter than blood fed to wolves

Innocence drifts like the last leaf

of fall running to winter's final kiss



The recipe of our lives

is the most common ingredient



There is a time for everything

and a place for where it begins

Caustic fruit retains a sting

but only cold rain kills the sin



Absent minded actions of our youth

outweigh forgiveness from today

Sour is better than a sweet tooth

we are so much more than prey


The beautiful decay of the thing

that's killing all that holds you.

The Windowpane on the Past and Present

These are some poems and songs I have written which will hopefully give you guys a look into my life without me having to write a short bio. In my case it wouldnt be short anyways, I would need to write a novel.

Unspoken Words

There's nothing left, no pieces to save

I'm hanging on.....but to what?

Lost love and memories echo through caves

Haunting silence, no vacancy to sleep

I am a shattered piece of broken glass

They walked away, quickly with no regret

Told I was never wanted, unspoken words

Speak volumes through careless actions

Sorry this son was a mistake from one night in bed

To die is easy, but to live is harder

but I'm a fighter and will keep fighting

till I die; I am smarter

than those who are now broken and crying

They walked away, even faster, with no regret

said nothing at all (just left), unspoken words

speak volumes through careless inactions

Sorry this man was a product of trivial desires

And the worst part is

before things get better

I'm headed for a cliff

Looking Back, Moving Forward

What do you do.....when all you have is pain?

When love has left you and you're all alone?

Your sanity cannot survive amid lives of insane

How much longer must we lick all these wounds?

Rip it, bleed it and zip it up

Dont tell me when I should heal

Suck it, dry it, blow it dry

In time will there be a seal

I've found my nighttime sanctuary

along with friends of misguided ghosts

We dance because of our fallen nature

No one can help us when they sent us there

What do you do......when your world's been infected?

When Shakespeare's tragedy becomes a parody of your life?

These violent delights surely have their violent ends

Only love can heal hurt behind broken hazel eyes

I dont cry on the outside anymore

I'm leaving the past to rot and decay

Moving forward, no no no no no more

Good-bye to parasites; no longer your whore

Until Then

I wanna know what it'd be like

to feel lightning touch my skin

to see my soul be cleansed from sin

As rain and wind dance in circles

I wanna fly with angels; shades of grey and purple

skies of twilight bleed to darkness

His love guides when blindness is my sight

This finite night now my infinte rest

Hands are blistered from whispered prayers

My demons aren't always in close corners

Sometimes I just wanna turn it off

Yeah turn it off but keep fightin

Till the end finally stops

Now even though I caught myself

I still have a ways before I hit the bottom

So the worst part is I'm still fallin

But the best scene is when I finally hit

And I wanna know love in a hurricane

Feel fury, mercy and grace in one

I'm not the same kid from your memory

So dont expect little growth or maturity

Ignorance

Shut me up in a cavern

Or perhaps a tiny tavern

Send me to the brink

Or drowning in an ice rink

The edge isnt on a cliff

Its always right below you

Crazy, crazy, psycho people

dont know what they want, want, want,want

Semblance of ignorance

is always what they flaunt, flaunt, flaunt, flaunt

Dig a hole inside a pit

Flem and lies are still just spit

Swallow the pills and novocaine

But your hallow bark is as bad as your bane

The end begins the final chapter

To eternity though it doesnt matter

Judge me as you will

slam that gavel down

louder c'mon! louder still

stupidity wears you like a crown.

The Fence

I left this world at a young age

when blood and darkness united as one

My haven of rest has become a cage

where demons and dreams bend thoughts of reality

No one knows the true pain

the true horror beneath the stories

Believe me, trust me, we're not the same

Just go on your way, with little or no memory

So many times I feel on both sides

of the fence ; what do I do now?

Satan haunts and attacks with a bow

I never will cause Christ is my King

Confusion leads to substitution

of morals over values; good-bye

to a world of lies and corruption

I'm getting high by stepping down

Being cool and courageous

doesnt always mean saved and blameless

Why are we so lame and careless?

Open our eyes to see the blindness.